Welcome to my little piece of randomness on the web (also know as the place where I keep the Zaylor fic). For those of you who don't know, Zaylor is the pairing of Zac/Taylor from Hanson. Yes, they are brothers. So if you have a problem with that or with slash, then this is not the fiction journal for you. But that's exactly what it is: FICTION.

If, on the other hand, you think you might be interested in some Zaylor fic, read on....


( The Before We Began Series )

( Multi-Chapter Fics )

( One Shots )

I'm gonna friends lock this journal, 'cos it's what all the cool kids are doing. If you wanna read more than the teaser, just comment and I'll add you.

Thanks for reading! 

The first chapter of each fanfic on this journal is public (except for Moments and The Fallout which are part of the Before We Began series and I count them all as one story). If you like what you've read and you want to read the rest, just comment on that chapter or here or any of the other public entries to be friended so you can view all the chapters of every fic here.

All one-shots, drabbles and shorter stories (less than 3 chapters) will remain friends only.

Hope you guys enjoy the read!

I was just informed by drunkinlov3 that I should check out the winners of the Theives and Liars Awards, and I was kind of completely SHOCKED to see that LLO won an award! I think this is the first award I've ever won for my writing, so THANK YOU so much to the people who voted for me!!



Congratulations to the other writers who won, especially those from the Zaylor community! It's great that so many Zaylor fics got recognition for once (but I still think we need our own Hancest specific awards... *cough*hearthatdrunkinlov3?*coughcough*). ;)

ETA

Okay, so apparently I won two awards. lol :$



Seriously speechless. O.O I love you guys. ♥♥♥!!!

I just deleted everyone from my flist. And I do mean everyone.

Maybe I'm kinda drunk, I don't know. What I do know is that I had 80 people on my flist and the vast majority of them haven't said a word to me since asking to be added. Maybe I shouldn't care about that, but I do.

Call me a bitch, roll your eyes, say I shouldn't care about feedback.

I. don't. care.

You try spending hours working on updates for a story, and having most of the people on your flist, who asked to read (no, I didn't beg anyone to read my fics, everyone on my flist ASKED to be there) never say a word about it. And I don't know about other writers on my flist, but writing is personal for me. It means something to me, it's like opening myself up to people in some way, putting some part of myself on display. And when the majority of people just walk away without saying a word, it hurts.

I've been writing Zaylor for 3 years now, and I have never demanded that people comment or be cut. I've never held a new chapter hostage until I've received a certain amount of comments on a previous chapter. But for the last few months, I've become less and less patient and understanding about it. And I've seen other writers becoming frustrated, also. There's little give and take between writers and readers. We put our souls on display and too many readers snort it up like a line of coke and go on their merry way like they never even saw it. They don't give anything back. And eventually, it stops being fun for us as writers. We become drained and demotivated, and then we disappear. And you wonder why.

I'm not saying people have to comment on every chapter. I'm not even saying they have to comment every 10 chapters. But if you've been on my flist for six months, and you've been reading the whole time, and you haven't said anything to me... I'm sorry, but that's bullshit.

If my writing sucks so much that you have nothing nice to say about it and therefore don't say anything at all, then this cut won't bother you because you don't like my fics anyway, right?

And if you like my writing, and read it frequently, but never leave feedback... *shrugs* I don't get it, honestly. People often say "I read but I don't have time to comment!", and I do believe that sometimes this can be true. But not all the time. If you have time to read 3000 words, you have time to comment on them. I personally don't read something until I have time to both read and comment it, because I know it's not fair to the writer if I just tear through their work like it's nothing and walk away. They put time and effort into it, if I don't have time to acknowledge that with some form of comment, I don't allow myself to read at all until I do.

For those of you who read and leave feedback frequently, I apologize. I know this cut is inconvenient, but I know that at least a few of you know what I'm talking about because you are writers yourselves.

If you WANT to keep reading, comment to be readded. But if you don't intend to leave feedback from time to time (and I mean because you think my writing is actually worth your consideration, not just because you're trying to meet some kind of undefined comment "quota"), then please don't ask to be readded.

I'm sure a lot of you think I'm stupid for doing this. Again: I don't care. It's gotten to the point where I spend most of my time feeling that my writing is so worthless that I have zero motivation to continue doing it anymore. And I'm sure those of you who don't write (and maybe some of you who do) will say that if I don't have motivation to write without feedback, I'm not doing it for the right reasons. Maybe you're right. But honestly, these stories are in MY head. I know these characters, I know where they're going, I know how they get there. I tell these stories in the hopes that other people will see something in them that they can relate to or at least be entertained by. If they're not, then what's the point in me writing them down? And how am I supposed to know who is actually enjoying (or even hating) these stories unless they say something every once in a while. I'm not asking you to blindly kiss my ass here. If you have constructive critisism, that's fine!

So It was either this drastic friends cut, or no longer posting my fics at all. In an effort to be fair to the people who do give a damn and do want to continue reading, I decided to try this first.

If I only end up with 10 people on my flist after this, so be it. At least it'll be the 10 people who I know actually care about the time and effort I put into these stories, whether that effort is evident to the rest of you or not. I'd really rather have 10 readers who genuinely care than 100 who don't.

Thanks.

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Title: Teacher's Pet
Author: breathe_abreath
Genre: Hanslash, Drama, Romance
Rating: PG-13 (R in later chapters)
Pairing: Taylor/James (OMC)
POV: James
Summary: “What would you do if one of your students had a crush on you?”

AU. Set in 2000.


I just posted a new story over on darenotlove that I thought I'd pimp here in case anyone was interested. It's a little different from other hanfics I've written, mostly because it's told from the POV of an original character rather than one of the Hanson brothers or third person. Some of you know James (aka Jammy) from my other stories, "What If...", "A Place Called Home", and "Let It All Out". But this is a different James.

Basically, it could be a different person entirely, but since this fic (which I started a year ago, btw) was supposed to be a birthday gift for iluvmuhbois, and she adores Jammy, I used him. Same look, same name, same family and friends, but with a slightly different upbringing and therefore different life story. We were joking about how hot it would be if James was Taylor's teacher in high school, and this is where it led me... I guess you could say this is yet another "what if..." lol What if Taylor had never become a famous rockstar at age 14, and James's family had never disowned him over his sexuality? Who would they have become, and how would they have crossed paths...?

This fic was originally supposed to be a smutty one-shot. But I suck at those, because I hate porn without plot. And even though there is plenty of porn in this fic, the plot took on a life of it's own and went from one shot to... well, currently I'm on page 79 and still going. lmao I said I wasn't going to start posting until it was finished, but apparently if I get bored enough I do stupid things.

I just wanted to let you guys know that I have started a new community to post my Hanslash fics on. Not that I have many, but I have 2 in the works, and since they're not Zaylor fics I didn't want to post them on this journal and spam those of you who aren't interested in anything but Zaylor.

The fics (so far) are about Taylor with another guy. In one fic it's Tommy Joe Ratliff, and in another it's an OMC that most of you are pretty familiar with by now (no, not Marsten). :p

I just posted the first of two (for now) parts of a Taylor/TJR fic, and I hope to finish and begin posting the Taylor/OMC fic by Christmas or the new year. It'd be nice to see some of you guys over there, but if it's not your thing I totally understand.

darenotlove



(you need to join the comm to see the fics, but membership is unmoderated, so you won't have to wait to be accepted)

I was just removing a few deleted journals from my flist and I thought I may as well do another friends cut/add.

I just removed 5 people from my flist who have unfriended me. And I am apparently on the flist of 67 people who I have not friended. I don't know how many of those people are people I cut in the past because they no longer wanted to read my fics (they never responded to a friends cut and asked to be kept), and how many are people who have added me without telling me and therefore haven't been added to my flist yet.

Usually people comment on one of my public posts and ask to be added, but incase there are any people out there who added me and never told me, please comment here and I'll add you. Similarly, if you were on my flist before and want to be re-added, please let me know here and I'd be happy to add you back again.

Thanks!

Hey guys!

imreadytojump and I got to talking lately, and we decided to start a new Zaylor community. It's for fanfics, fanart, videos, and just general squeeing over our favorite, unnaturally touchy-feely-starey brothers. But the thing that makes it kind of different from other Hancest-centric communities is... we don't care about the sex. Or it's one of the least important factors, at least. I realize some of you just completely lost any and all interest you had in joining after reading that, and that's totally fine. But if you're still interested in sharing fanfics/art/vids/ideas about Zaylor that have less sex in them, we'd love to have you! You can find out more by visiting the community and reading the info and rules.

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I've been doing a lot of thinking about what I loved about Zaylor, and what drew me into writing fics, and which fics of mine I'm most proud of, and which fics by other people are most special to me. I don't know if I've just been in this writing community of ours for long enough now to have seen the less "innocent" side of it, but I really miss how I used to feel about it. I know that imreadytojump feels something very similar, and I'm not sure if this new comm will help us to get back some of what we feel we've lost, but we're hoping it will. And if not... well, we'll deal with that later. lol We just want something of a fresh start, I guess.

Hope to see some of you there! Please spread the word if you think you know anyone who might be interested in joining!

Title: Life Less Ordinary (1/?)
Author: breathe_abreath
Genre: Hancest
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Zaylor
POV: Zac
Word Count: 2313
Summary: Even though there was a very tight knot in my stomach, and my heart was pounding a little faster than usual in my chest to let me know that I shouldn't read any of the letters in the envelopes, I swallowed my apprehension, pulled the first slightly crumpled piece of notepaper out, and unfolded it.

AU. Set in 2002/2003 (though Taylor's hair is set in 2004/2005 lol). No fame. No siblings. No Tulsa.

Author's Note: This story isn't finished, but despite my "finish fics before posting" policy, I'm going to slowly start posting chapters anyway.

This story is for drunkinlov3, because she has been cheering it on since I first started writing it almost nine months ago. In fact, she's been cheering this story on since I first told her the basic idea I had for it over a year ago, and without her I probably wouldn't be so close to having it complete. I love you, Sammy! ♥


( Part 1 - Lonely )

I just did the friends cut I've been warning about. I cut exactly 2/3 (80) of the people on my flist. If you were one of them, it was nothing personal, it was simply because you never replied to the friends cut post I made 2 weeks ago (and posted a reminder about one week ago). I thought 2 weeks would be plenty of time for people to comment if they wanted me to keep them on my flist, but if I was wrong and you missed it, or you never noticed it, or you just forgot to reply, or you did reply and I cut you by accident, or whatever, just comment here and I'll re-add you.

♥